Antidepressant Fear

I'm reminded of my number one fear when starting antidepressants: will it change who I am? Yeah, still present tense. All the SSRI's I've been on? No, I was always still the stubborn ass I always was. Ketamine? Yeah. I'm way more zen about everything.

I can still think my way around any technical obstacle, if it's possible, if not moreso now. But at the same time, I'm much more able to not take things personally, when I get something wrong, or genuinely fuck up. "Fail Fast, Fail Often" I'm a better man, now, without a doubt, so the fear was just that, apparently?