Still kickin

Had some negativity seep in after deploying my latest release last week. Did two Mindblooms a few days apart, still struggling for some reason. It's a complete stability release, only meant for faster response, so it's likely nobody will notice the improvement. I'm the only one that can do this, but I'm still anxious that they'll axe me, especially now that it's crazy stable, no need for me to fix stuff... I have enough in the bank for 6 months of bills, but it's still nerve wracking. I keep repeating to myself that those are just fears. Thought forms that come and go. I will NOT be a slave to the last thought-form that went careening through my conciousness! I'm the only one that can maintain this system. The mouthbreather we hired to help me, is just... not. I suck at interviewing. The guy had all the answers, and they just sits on his ass, refusing to work on the tasks I've given him. wtf. oh well. not my problem, I'm just a contractor. Tried to get my old buddy into the .net side, but he has a family, so I'll probably have to figure it out on my own.