Pain

I find myself having to be VERY careful these days, to pay attention to my pain.

Case in point are my foot issues. I was so absorbed in work, and my coping mechanism of walking, I didn't notice I was damaging my feet.

It's been 3 weeks since I really took measures to heal, and the bruises are shrinking finally. whew.

I walked to the off road shop today, 3.2m (google), with my dawg. Feet hurt pretty bad initially, but once I pushed past it, and focused on my muscle pleasure, they just didn't hurt anymore. It's somehow more easily ignored? Fucking crazy, man.

Marijuana was my first clue that I've been in pain forever... When I finally got over my disdain for drugs, and gave it a try, I was able to walk/hike/jog 5 times farther, and enjoyed it quite a bit more.

That was only a year or two before Ketamine popped up in my Facebook feed. I'd researched it before, but it didn't research as an option.

So much awesomeness in the funding sphere.

I'm trepidatious about trying DMT. Ketamine kindof has a ramp up to disassociation, which is comforting, so I'm nervous about just getting there instantly.